Thursday, 23 August 2012

Merry Christmas by the Letter - 23.08.12

I've had a new start this week it's Lizzie Kate's design Merry Christmas by the Letter.  Here's what I've done up to now.  I do love Lizzie Kate designs they are so simple but so effective.  Before anyone thinks I've spelt favourite wrong it's the American spelling and the O is going to be represented with a button which I will add at the end.  I've also changed the colour of the border as it was originally meant to be in DMC 712 which is the same colour as the M and the E and it wouldn't have shown up on the fabric I'm using.

I've been having a tough time in my personal life in the past few weeks.  I've got a history of depression and anxiety and unfortunately it's all flared up again.  I think it's because we are in the middle of moving house and I really don't cope well with stress.  There is also an emotional element to the move which I'm finding more difficult to cope with than I thought I would.  We are buying my grandparents house, my grandma passed away nearly 4 years ago and my grandad passed away earlier this year.  On one hand I am so happy and excited to be moving but on the other hand I feel a great sadness that we are only able to buy the house because my grandparents are gone.

I've got so much I need to do for the house move it seems to overwhelm me and I feel paralysed and end up doing nothing.  I don't even seem to be able to keep up with the normal everyday household jobs like washing the pots and ironing etc let alone do anything towards the move.  Even my stitching hasn't been able to calm me recently.  I just can't seem to settle on a project and I've ended up addling lots more WIPs to my rotation.  It's a complete contradiction when with all things domestic I don't want to do anything yet with my stitching I just want to keep starting new projects.

We met with our solicitor yesterday and went through all the paperwork and there are just a few loose ends that need tying up and then hopefully we will be moving before the end of September.

I'm trying to set myself small goals everyday but find that most days I don't even accomplish half of them.


Jeanne said...

I love your Lizzie Kate start. It's understandable to feel anxiety about moving. I think it's nice you are moving into your grandparents home - you will feel close to them and think how happy they would be that you are there instead of strangers. Change can be very unsettling that's for sure..I find the older I get the harder it is for me to change my routine, surroundings, etc. Once you get in and start to make it 'home' I think you will feel better. Good luck with the move!

Grit said...

Das sieht toll aus.
Liebe grüße Grit

Melody said...

Your LK is coming along beautifully! Good choice in changing the border color; the red looks great.

My sympathies on the loss of your dear grandparents, although I'm happy for you that you will be able to enjoy the space that they shared together. Try not to focus on the things you don't get done, and focus instead on the little steps you take in the right direction. After awhile, the little steps will add up to big steps and things will start looking brighter and brighter. Just remember, this too shall pass. Best wishes!! :)

gracie said...

Lizzie and Kate designs are so much fun to stitch. I love the idea of the button for the "O". Try to take one day at a time...I know easy for me to say... but even if you just break down the day into segments maybe it will be easier for you...Good luck with the move.

Mangogirl said...

Beautiful stitching I love the o idea. Good luck with moving. I was extremely stressed when we moved. if possible hire the professionals to move the big stuff it took our stress away a lot they just know how to move things with 2 guys really quickly. best money we spent.

mdgtjulie said...

I'm sorry to hear about the stress, Nic. I know it can be really tough to cope with. I'm hoping to eventually buy my dad's house, but I've had plenty of time to get used to him being gone. (He died on Dec 21st, 2010. I'm still talking about him in the present, but I know he's gone, and I'm getting used to it.) Hopefully, everything will work out like I anticipate. I like his house, and it's a good size for me. (I live with just my cat, Yes Dear, and the house is a two bedroom. I can have one bedroom for my bedroom, one for my computer and schoolwork, and the living room for stitching and stuff. Perfect!! Plus, it's got three garages, and David would like to keep them in the family. He has all of dad's wood working tools in there, and dad's old car. I don't think he's ready to part with it.) Anyways, I hope you get the depression and anxiety under control. It sucks when you get in that place where everything seems overwhelming. I've been there so many times. I'll say a prayer for you. Good luck with the stitching too. It's hard to feel like you're progressing when you keep starting new things!!!

Jo who can't think of a clever nickname said...

Sorry to hear you're having a hard time. Moving is one of the most stressful things you can do even without the added emotional content of losing your grandparents.
We moved alot when I was a child and as a result I have only lived in 2 different houses in 25 years as an adult! Actually I'd still be in my original little house if I hadn't have got together with hubby. This is our forever house now.

cucki said...

hello dear its me cucki..thank you so much for following my blog..
your blog is so sweet..i love your stitching so much..
so sorry to hear that you are having hard times..i am thinking of you here so much..
sending you lots of love
cucki xxx

Shebafudge said...

Sorry to hear you are having a bad time of it at the moment. Moving house is hard at the best of times.

I 'suffer' with depression too so I know what you mean about the stitching and chores. When depression hits me I do what I feel I can and then leave the rest. At the end of the day it's not the end of the world if the pots aren't washed immediately. One thing that I found helped me was that I was only going to do 15 minutes housework and that was it. I often found that I did a bit more without noticing which helped make me feel better about myself.

Go with new starts if that is what you feel like doing at the moment. There is plenty of time to finish them when you are feeling more like your usual self.

Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. x x x

Joysze said...

Great start, Nic.

I'm sorry that the happy occasion of buying a home is couple with the sadness of losing your grandparents. Hang in there. *hugs*